CHAPTER 120 OF 120
THE FIRST YEAR
The night before the history box went into the hall cupboard for summer, Jasper opened it one more time. His bedroom was quiet. There were no Tidefall bells sounding through stone and no waves striking the Academy cliffs far below a western window. Outside were suburban roofs, a streetlight, the distant noise of a car and a magpie that had apparently decided night was an acceptable time to complain. The box smelled faintly of paper, dust and salt. Jasper sat on the floor and lifted the lid. He did not take everything out. There was too much now, and that felt like the point.
The blue cloth from his first Foundations lesson was folded beneath the west-stair pebble. Harper's race ribbon had wrapped itself around a safety card. Ava's first measuring sheet sat under the Chronicle beside a Brannor stone and the little yellow mechanical bookmark Jasper had forgotten he owned until that moment. He smiled at the cloth. At the beginning of the year he had spent several minutes trying to move something lighter than a handkerchief by one centimetre.
Now he could hold a shield, warm water without boiling it and use enough Essence to move several things at once if Professor Elowen was nearby to tell him when he was getting sloppy. That felt like a better kind of progress than anything the sea had done. Jasper opened the Chronicle. A page near the back still carried the heading Ava had written months earlier:
THINGS YOU ARE ALLOWED NOT TO KNOW YET.
There were more things on the list now than there had been when she started it. What exactly was Titan-sense? Why could Jasper reach the Water Titan when Alaric Thorne seemed able to hear only echoes? Why had the water moved for Harper when she fell? Why had nothing answered when Benji fell? What had happened during the strange pause in Jasper's Choosing? How much of Tidefall's oldest Selari history had been misunderstood because nobody alive had the whole story? At the beginning of first year, six unanswered questions would have driven Jasper mad. Now they mostly looked like next year's problem. He found a pencil and added one sentence at the bottom.
You are allowed to leave some questions for later. Jasper read it twice. Then he shut the Chronicle. Some things from the year were not inside the box at all. Harper talking after lights-out when everyone else wanted to sleep. Ava labelling socks because being organised was easier than admitting she was nervous. Bad toast. Handball arguments. Ancient Selari that turned out to contain complaints about wet stairs as well as warnings about Titans. The night market. The storm. Harper falling. Benji falling. Those two memories would probably never fit together neatly.
The Water Titan had moved once and not the other time. Jasper had spent months wanting a rule that explained why. He had imagined that if he found the rule, he could work out what he should have done differently. There might not be one. That did not mean Benji's fall was Jasper's fault. It did not mean Harper's rescue belonged to him either. Hearing something was not the same as controlling it. Jasper put the Chronicle back. His temporary Brannor scarf went on top. Grey cloth, gold edge, slightly crooked where it had been folded after Choosing Tide. Next year he would return to Tidefall as a Brannor student.
Harper would almost certainly claim the spare bed in B-12 for bags before anyone could stop her. Ava would object and then create a storage system. Soren would vanish into Nocten's library spaces. Mia would demand another handball match. Lessons would get harder. The fourth bed would still be empty. Jasper did not know who would eventually sleep there. He did not need to. His father knocked on the open door.
"Finished?"
"Nearly."
Dad looked at the box. "Still weighs approximately the same as a small car?"
"Harper gave me rocks."
"Of course she did."
Jasper closed the lid. His father carried the box into the hall while Jasper switched off the bedroom lamp. Darkness settled around the room. For a moment he listened automatically. No pressure touched his chest. No impossible awareness turned toward him from far beyond Perth. There was only the ordinary night. Months ago, silence had felt like proof that something was missing. Now Jasper lay back against his pillow and understood that silence could simply mean nothing was asking for his attention. That was fine. Tidefall would still be there next year. So would the sea. Jasper closed his eyes. This time, he did not wait for an answer.
THE END